this is not a Temple Gong; no Red Alert.
Yet.
Second;
invoke WF Lifestyle Principle #1;Breath and Posture
Adjust your spine into her most elegant fashion that you have steadily enhanced during your Time with me. Elegance of posture is more than physical; it metaphysically grounds our minds that are usually too quick, too undisciplined to remain centered.
Now,
Take a deep, conscious, and grateful Breath.
Each breath is a miracle; the last 25 years i have been attempting to Teach all of you that, and the last 24 hours, my NewBorn Daughter has drilled that Teaching into myself and Joy like never, ever before.
Third;
please keep the Sacred Mantra close with mind until you hear further from me.
***
Two nights ago, during an extended feeding with Joy in the middle of the night, Dewa stopped breathing, turned as Blue As Krishna, and went Unconscious, slipping temporarily back into the Bardo Realm. Ananda, sleep deprived and exhausted, was now a lightening bolt of Fear; immediately and intuitively turned Dewa over and literally pounded the Prana back into my baby daughter who upchucked a volume of breast milk and then immediately fell fast asleep.
Ananda, understandably awash in tears and in a zombie like fashion, came to me at my now regular bivouac upon the living room couch. Only rookie parents could imagine the depth of our conversation and our hugs. Ananda had faced Shiva squarely in the eyes and handled with poise and perfected action what is surely the most frightening circumstance available in the entire Human Realm; seeing your own baby stop breathing and turn blue and pass out in your arms. i bow to my amazing Ananda; just like i wrote in DL yesterday; ALL of Ananda's training was brought to a peak M(om)ent of Testing in that intense situation and she Stepped Up like the Great Human Being she is!
At the pediatrics the next morning, the Head Doctor admitted Dewa directly into the Pediatrics Intensive Care Unit for observations. Stoppage of breath is not taken lightly with infants.
Flash forward through a lot of stressful terrain to this morning;
Dewa is still in a "gray zone," according to the Doctor. i am in direct contact with all the Doctors. Right now, Ananda and i have chosen the Middle Path out of several conservative and aggressive options provided to us; we will stay with Dewa in the Unit for another 24 hours. a spurious fever is awash among my beautiful baby. Joy and i chant beside Her ear as we watch for aberrations among the host of numbers blinking out to us from the imposing monitor looming over my Precious Lotus Eyed Baby Dewa.
May NONE of you see your own baby's tiny form hooked up to wires like a hard drive within an ICU bed for days of unknowing.
i must now return to the hospital.
More later.
Please keep the Mantra close and sincere.
i humbly express my apologies to my faithful Yoga Students for not being able to teach last night (special thanks to Kiara and Patki for your answer to my Wolf Howl)
and
especially deep apologies to my fiercely faithful Online Students of WF;
it is your loyalty to my Online Path which is the breath behind my ability to do what i attempt to do in the world while attempting to provide for my family;
thank you so much and i look forward to regaining the Work with you at the earliest possible opportunity.
Having signed up for the Advanced Course toward Enlightenment under the most Potent Teachers on the plane(t) three decades ago; i would NOT put it past my Teachers to
have me have to deal with the passing of my own baby.
Such an event is FAR from likely,
however,
if you could see my Little One now,
you would probably do what Ananda and i have been doing a lot of:
crying, appreciating, and loving, loving, loving.
Life is precious. Do not waste it on frivolity.
The Spiritual Journey is just that; spiritual.
It does not give one iota about your personal (egoic) cares.
From the deepest Dancing With Shiva since my mountaineering days,
i
bow
to
Thee;
Practice SUPER Strong Today for our family, okay?
Om Mani Padme Hung,
your loving protector and server of the Dharma through personal fitness
